Video addiction

Are you sitting at the screen again?
You're really watching too many videos lately.

I'm really spending a lot of time at the screen.
I can't do a lot yet, but I'm comfortable with watching videos and can't get enough of it.

But they are fun.
What's the problem?

I've watched them a lot when I was younger.
But when thinking about it, it hasn't been that much fun.
Most of these videos are just random people talking about random stuff.
Am I right?

She might have a point.

At least I can choose which people to watch.

Not really.
When you find someone, who talks about something interesting once, you often just keep watching them even if they get boring or start talking bullshit, right?

How does she know?

It happens from time to time.

If you just want to listen to random people talking about random topics, you can just come along with me to a party today.
Doesn't that sound like a good idea?

Not really.

I thought I'm the one who prefers to stay in my room and do nothing.
You always wanted to get to know the city and the people.
Now it's your chance.

I changed my mind. That's the real city lifestyle.

Yeah, you're getting used to this place fast.
But maybe you want to consider, that when talking to real people, you might even be able to get to know them personally and spend as much time with them as you want, even if they stop talking.
And you even can influence what they say.

I think I can do that, too.
Most of them react to paid messages and I can even call some of them in private.

You'd never do this anyway.
So come on, the party will be fun.

But I don't want to. She is really funny.
It's really unlikely to find someone like her at a party.

What are you even watching?

Ruby looks into your screen.

Oh, it might be more likely than you think.

Now it gets interesting.
I pause the video.

What do you mean?

I know her. That's Kia. She's in one of my courses.

You know her?

Uhm, kind of. I never really talked to her.

So she won't be at the party I guess.

I don't know, who will be there. It's not my party.
But I know the host of the party knows her as well, so there is a chance she'll come for real, even if it might just be a small chance.

A small chance to get to know her is enough for me. I immediately turn off the screen and get up.

When will the party begin?

The guests are allowed to come in about two hours, but I'd rather go in four, so something is going on already.
So will you be with me?

Yeah. I'll get ready immediately.

I run towards the bath room.

No need to hurry. You still have multiple hours.

I have to get pretty in case she's really there.
Even if it's just a small chance, I imagine how it would be if it happens for real.
I'm getting really nervous when thinking about it.

When I think I look good enough, I just lie down in my bed and can't stop thinking about how I would react in different situations.
I'm probably just stupid. She won't be there anyways.
Ruby just wanted to make me accompany her to the party.
I'm not stupid.
She wouldn't lie to me, but the low chance probably means, the chance is really low.

I still didn't finish watching my video.
Maybe finishing it would help me to get distracted and relax. Or it would help me to know how I should act when meeting her.
But I feel like it's best to stay alone with my thoughts and process them until they get quiet.
And it works. After some time, my thoughts don't really matter anymore. That's what meditation is about, isn't it?

I'd like to go then. Are you ready?

I immediately get up again.

Oh, it's so late already?
I'm coming!

I look into the mirror, everything still looks fine.
Then I run towards the livingroom, where Ruby is already waiting for me.

Yeah, let's go!